10 Weeks by Jolene Perry

Author:Jolene Perry
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Published: 2012-08-31T03:00:00+00:00

We take the food and opt to walk about a mile up the trail that circles the lake. We sit at the top of the hill; a perfect spot where we can see almost everything, but no one can see us.

Liam pulls out two burgers, and neither of us says anything. We eat in silence. It’s the weird awkward kind at first, but it turns comfortable.

“Care to share?” he finally asks.

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” I say as I pull on a few blades of grass between us. My conversation with the girls and how scared I am, how I made it to twenty-one without having sex, even though I didn’t even intend for it to be that way. All of it whips around my head.

“What do you mean?”

“I mean. Why can’t I just be?” Like right now. I’m staring at this gorgeous man. Really. Model beautiful. And I can’t enjoy it. I’m too busy thinking and dissecting…and being afraid of what he might want from me. How I might screw it up since I know nothing about being with someone.

He’s silent and watching me with kind eyes.

“Kay-Kay had this crazy childhood. Her parents are complete douche-bags. It’s amazing Sam’s not locked up somewhere, and still, they’re out there living, and I feel like I’m watching from the sidelines. After the way Jeff threw me, it’s like I’ve lost my footing.”

“Bill mentioned him.” Liam wipes his hands on a napkin before adjusting to see me better. “He seems a bit too…nerdy, for someone like you.”

“I used to drink in high school, and it never ended well. Jeff was safe. Made me feel safe. Made it okay that I’m so careful with the way I live my life now.”

“Makes sense.”

I nod. “It’s that our families are so connected, and I know I can be stubborn, and opinionated, and—”

“Says the girl wearing the Girls Rule T-shirt.” He smiles. “But I like that about you. Anyone should. It’s part of who you are.”

I glance down and smile because it’s sort of a profound, yet simple statement. “My parents expect a lot, but they’re not bad people. I’ve never had anything horribly traumatic happen to me, but God I can’t let go. Not even when I want to. I don’t get it. It’s like life is right here. Right here. I’m supposed to be in it, and I’m not. I’m watching and going through the motions and that’s bullcrap, and I don’t know why I’m letting that happen or why I’m watching instead of taking control and doing something.”

His breath hits my face, making my heart skip and my stomach squeeze.

Instead of answering, his lips press into mine.

My body quakes. I don’t know him. He is not safe. This is a bad idea. His lips part slightly and without thinking, I part mine too, letting out a soft moan at how incredible he feels.

Just as his tongue slides in my mouth I jerk away. I can’t do this. I scoot from him and hold my head in my hands, trying to breathe.

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